Reflection

What a busy year our family has had. I have made some personal reflection but am going to share Emma's year here, since after all this is HER blog!

January brought Fifth's disease and or first ER trip for Emma in a long time. She got over it quickly thankfully.

Feb. and March Emma got a new feeding pump, lost her nursing care (which has been such a blessing!) and worked on growing stronger and healthier. She did a great job! Emma lost her Great Grandma towards the end of March, a very tough time for our family.

April--The darkest month of the year, the one we would give anything to change. A terrible infection in Emma's leg seemed to be the big blow of the month, it was scary and we worried about her a lot. But fate dealt the darkest blow April 28, when Emma's boyfriend Daniel passed away. Words can not express the pain we felt, and still feel over his loss.

May--Emma lost 5 teeth and had fun playing water guns on Memorial day.

June and July-Another leg infection, what a scare. Fourth of July and playing at the park filled Emma's days.

August--Emma met Donna and Brian (Daniel's parents) for the first time when they came to visit for Emma's hip surgery. Her hip surgery went very well and she got big purple casts.

Sept --Went to a picnic at the church we would later attend, got her casts off, had to be patient with Mommy while she learned to pick up a STRAIGHT legged girl, ate ice cream sundaes for brother's birthday.

Oct--Turned 4! Honored Daniel on his birthday, started attending church regularly, dressed up as a snow princess on Halloween

Nov--Rode a trike at therapy! It was amazing and she did a great job. Got hip splints to help keep her legs nice and straight. Still going to church and loving it!

Dec--Rode a trike again, got a new wheelchair,took part in a candle lighting ceremony at church on Christmas, got lots of toys and clothes for presents.Sits in a chair all by herself with no help!

Looking back this year has been such a blessing. Despite the two leg infections she had a very healthy year, her best one yet. She is moving her head more, learning to balance herself more, is more vocal. She continues to amaze me every day in all she can do, and all she TRIES to do.

Looking forward to 2009 to make more happy memories with Emma and watch her continue to grow strong and surprise us all.

I haven't updated about Christmas yet, I guess I have been to worn out! Between cooking, doing gifts and then playing with al the gifts I have been tired.

It was a wonderful holiday. Started off by going to church on Christmas Eve, where we did a candle lighting ceremony and sang lots of beautiful songs. Then home to make a gingerbread house, which the kids then took the roof off of, it looked like a tornado hit it. Milk and cookies, magic reindeer hay put out and off to bed.

The kids woke up and did the whole Santa thing and opened gifts. We now offically have too many toys! Lots of great gifts this year. Emma got a beautiful necklace from Donna and Brian. Its a crystal heart with a purple butterfly in the middle, and they also sent her a Cowardly Lion statue from the Wizard of Oz, the lion is a thing for Emma. Full of courage and didn't even know it, just like Emma!

We got movies, clothes, candy, big giant my size barbies, blendie pens, you name it we now own it.

It was a very warm and happy holiday at our house, and I hope all our readers were as equally blessed!

Attached are a few photos, the candle one blurred with no flash, but its from our church candle lighting and I didn't want to intterupt things by using a flash.Derek and Ella got wax lips in part of their gift from Donna and Brian so we had to take silly pics, even with Emma wearing them!

Merry Christmas

Will blog details of our Christmas Eve tomorrow along with our Christmas day, right now I wish everyone would read this and remember that night long ago.


Luke 2:1-14
In those days Caesar Augustus issued a decree that a census should be taken of the entire Roman world. (This was the first census that took place while Quirinius was governor of Syria.) And everyone went to his own town to register.

So Joseph also went up from the town of Nazareth in Galilee to Judea, to Bethlehem the town of David, because he belonged to the house and line of David. He went there to register with Mary, who was pledged to be married to him and was expecting a child. While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born, and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn.

And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. But the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger."

Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying,
"Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace to men on whom his favor rests."

Yesterday was a good day. Emma went to physical therapy and we took lots of pictures of their decorations. The J.D. McCarty center does awesome Christmas decortations, I think anything that stands still long enough gets a bow or string of lights stuck on it. Emma had fun, and got to see all the pretty things.

They gave us a gift basket for Christmas that included dinner, a spiral ham which looks so good I can hardly wait to cook it, and presents for Emma Ella and Derek. We are so thankful and we love everyone there so much.

We are still waiting on Emma's footrest for her wheelchair, they told me it should be today, but the day is almost half over and no footrest yet. I hope we get it before tomorrow night, we really want to go to church. I may be taking her with only one footrest, I don't want to miss Christmas eve services.

Just some random Christmas pics

Our Nativity



Our Tree and our doggie LOL



Tree light, I am playing with our close up on the camera


Derek said this looked cool


A kind of neat shot of our star



Our Homer ornament in Memory of Daniel


Derek made me this at school



Emma's best friend Emma Mae


Emma's other friend Caleb (Emma Mae's baby brother)

We have recently found a blog about a very tiny little miracle named Kayleigh. She only weighted 1 lb and 1 oz when she was born back in June and she has had a really rough go at things. She is on a ventilator like Emma, except her's goes down her mouth and not a trach, she is in a NICU fighting for her life.

Could you all please say a pray for her and for all the other tiny little ones fighting to stay alive this Christmas season?

Click the picture it will take you to Kayleigh's blog.

Emma sitting like a big girl

Last night Emma sat in our recliner all by herself with no help! Her balance is getting better, and since her hip surgery she is actual able to sit up. She still needs the support of a chair, but I am hoping that one day maybe not in the very near future, but at some point she will sit unassisted in the middle of the floor with no help from a chair.

She sat that way for several mins last night, I did make a short video for you to see.

Emma sitting up in a chair

Emma and her equipment

Here is a video of Emma and a quick tour of her room and some of her things. Not the very best quality video but you get the idea.

I plan on posting lots of videos in the days to come, we have so many Christmas traditions I would love to share with you all.

Emma and her room

What we want from Santa...

Well, we do Santa at our house, and the kids are very excited, so they made their wishlist video. Ella has the croup and a very scratchy throat so she is hard to hear, and Derek just cracks me up. Emma is at the end, and she is mad I didn't curl her hair before filming, but she was getting ready for bed!


What we want for Christmas

Christmas came early for us

So we went to went to the inlaws last night to do Christmas early since Emma's uncle Adam is home from Iraq but has to return before Christmas. We had a nice time, and Emma liked sitting in her Grandmother's little red rocker.

We got so many gifts its hard to list. Each kid got a nice new outfit and a few toys and movies. I got a day spa gift certificate good for a haircut and style and pedicure! I got a make up set, which is nice because I don't normally wear make up at all but sometimes its nice. Emma is wearing the lipstick in some of the pictures. I thought it was cute to put it on her. Oh and we also got a new digital camera so you know what that means, more pics on my posts!

A family friend brougt her kids and Ella got to hold her daugter Auroa. Its the first baby Ella has ever held, and it was adorable. She talked to her and thought it was so funny when the baby started to rub her hair.

Its supposed to turn icy and cold and be a generally icky week. I am praying its not as bad as it was last year where we lost power for a week. No fun at all, and a bit scary when you have a child who needs power. Thankfully we were able to stay with family.

4 years ago yesterday Emma got her trach. I forgot about the "anniversary" until today. People ask me "Wow did you think 4 years later she would still have it?" and you know what, I have never thought about it. She has a trach because she needs it, and if she needs it forever so be it. I don't look in the future and wonder things like that, she is who she is in this moment and that is all fine with me.

Memories of a precious boy

Made a video in memory of Daniel, our precious little love. His mom is missing him so much at Christmas, while this video is sad, I hope it serves as a reminder of the love he had for the world, and we had for him. Though memories can fade to grey our love for Daniel will always be in technicolor

Our Dog Violet

I was going through pictures to put together a Christmas card, and found a bunch of the kids I loved, I have narrowed it down and ordered the cards. So while looking through I found a bunch of our dog Violet and it dawned on me, I don't think I have ever talked about her here. So I thought why not post some pics and talk about her a bit.

Violet was born March 11, 2006. She came to live with me right around mother's day that year, she is a combined birthday/mother's day gift for me. I don't know why she is MY dog, her and Ella are inseparable. She is an Australian Cattle dog. She is pretty smart, she can sit and shake hands and lay down on command. She barks at strangers, but is pretty much like a big cat here at home, she thinks she is a lap dog, even though she probably weights about 50 lbs.

The night I brought her home I thought being a cattle dog she might chase the kids. But Ella chased her! Around the coffee table a few times and has not stopped playing with her since, she is her buddy. Ella tries to ride on her like a horse, and pulls her ears and Violet just comes back for more! LOL

Anyway the kids want Santa to bring her a new pink water bowl and food bowl for Christmas, and think she needs a stocking. I told them we would see!

Above are the pics, and yes the one with me I do have red hair. It was back in April when I thought being red for a while would be fun. It was kind of too orange though.

Grandpa and Grandma come to visit

We had a very nice visit today with Grandpa and Grandma. I am so glad they came down from Kansas. We don't get to see them as often as I would like, between us not having transportation up there, and them working as hard as they do. So every visit with them is special.

I took Emma off her vent for a few mins and Grandma got to her hold with her new and improved legs. I don't think she even drooled on Grandma but she sure drooled on my arm when I picked her up. No fair. I put her back on her vent and then was going to let Grandpa hold her a little later but she started having issues breathing. Nothing terrible. Her oxygen sats just dropped down into the upper 80's for a few seconds like they have been when she was sick. So we had to lay her flat on her bed and she breathed much better, so Grandpa didn't get to hold his sweet pea, but that is ok he gave her lots of kisses. Sometimes Emma just breaths better laying down than sitting up.

Derek and Ella got to show Grandpa the game called "Jump all over Emma's bed since she is her wheelchair, and lets see how many times we can almost jump the blanket off the bed!" LOL they were little hyper kids, I swear. Show offs. They had fun though.

We did find out that Emma's other Aunt, Aunt Kayla (Daddy's step sister) is having a baby too! So now Emma will be getting 2 new cousins thanks to Aunt Kayla and Aunt Amanda. Apparently they already told Darren but he being the forgetful husband he can be, forgot to tell me! I am excited for her, she is a good girl ummm I mean woman sorry. I have known her since she was about 9 or 10, I can't hardly imagine her grown up and having a baby. She has had some rough times in her life, but is doing wonderfully now and I am so happy her life is beginning to turn around, and I know she is trying so hard, and am proud of her.

We put up our Christmas tree last night, its all blue and silver and a few white balls. Beautiful new silver star on top, it doesn't' light up though and I am not used to that. We have one non-blue, silver or what ornament. Its a homer Simpson one, and I got it in memory of Daniel. Its on the side closes to Emma's bed so she can see it at night when she lays down. I tucked a picture of Daniel in her stocking too, because I know that is all she wants for Christmas, for him to be back here. I wish that could be possible, I know his Mom and Dad are going to miss him so much this year.

So that's the update for now, the in laws told me today the appreciate me keeping the blog up, so they can get updates on all of us, so I guess that means I do have readers ha ha and that I should do my best to updated it more. I will try.

Still no new pics, still no memory stick for my camera, its has vansishes and I need to get a new one. We are considering getting a new camera all together for Christmas

Update on everyones health

Quick update

Emma--She is doing ok, runny nose and icky eyes but nothing too bad. She keeps desatting (oxygen levels go down) to around 87-89 and then either comes back up on her own quickly or requires trach suctioning. 87-89 is not terribly low, but its unusual for her, her doctor says she needs to stay above 92 or use oxygen, But since she is staying around 98 or 99 most of the time I think she is ok. On a scale of 1-10 with 10 being super sick she is maybe a 2 or 3. I just worry because things can go south with her really quickly.

Ella--Had a fever all night last night but has felt much better today, she is up late and practicing tracing lines in her workbook, she is doing great with the lines, she will be tracing letters very soon.

Derek--went to school today but came home sounding horse. He went to Grandmother's tonight to go see his Uncle Adam who came in from Iraq a few hours earlier than expected today so we didn't get to meet him at the airport. He is still there at 9pm and better hurry up its past his bedtime!!

Darren and I are both pretty much well. I do fine for hours and then get a bad sinus headache. Medicine helps but takes a while to kick in.

Found out for sure that Grandpa and Grandma are coming to visit from KS on Saturday.Hope everyone is well by then, we should be. We started to decorate for Christmas today, and will put up the tree on Thur or Friday so Grandpa and Grandma will have a chance to see it. The kids can't wait much longer anyway. We got the snowman wreath out today, the nativity and decorated the table with candles and a new runner I got. The kids put sticker type things on the patio door, they are cute.

Quick Lil' update

Just a quick update, I meant to update last week some but I have had a cold for a week and haven't felt like being on the computer. Now Derek has a sore throat and I have had to suction Emma's trach some today,so I am hoping she isn't getting a cold too. We usually suction her trach once every 2 or 3 days now, she just doesn't make a bunch of gunk but I have done it several times today. Her overall apperance is good though, and her oxygen a levels and heart rate are fine, no fever. I am hoping its just "one of those things". Lets pray it is. She usually does ok with colds now but you never know, she could still have it turn into something worse. I will keep you updated, I am sure its nothing.

We had a nice Thankgsiving here at home. Emma liked watching the parade. I put cool whip on her nose. It was funny. She liked the Kermit ballon the best on the parade. Ella was all about Dora.

I went black friday shopping, yes I am insane, and got a few things for the kids Christmas. They will be so excited. We haven't decided when we are setting up our Christmas tree, but I am thinking maybe next weekend.

Emma's uncle Adam will be heading home from Iraq in the next few days, so everyone keep him in your prayers that he will have a safe trip home. He will be able to spend an early Christmas with all the family here, before he has to head back.

Not much else going on to share right now, thought I better put a short something up before you think I forgot about you all.

My baby girl is a trike rider!

Emma went to thearpy today and rode on the trike again. This time she did awesome. I was so proud. Nanny and Poppy came to see her and think she blew them away! If you kind of tickle her legs she will push the pedals. We took some pictures and the therapy place took some too. Nanny's camera took some video for us, but we didn't get as much of her actual riding becasue the camera is acting funny and has a defective part in it so Nanny has to send it off tomorrow. She is only wearing her tights because we took her jeans off for her to try her braces on. Oh well,she isn't shy. I see London I see France I see Emma's underpants. The pics and video speak volumes compared to how much I could brag, enjoy them!

Just some thoughts on God and church

I remember the excitement and love I felt when I had the lead in the church Christmas play when I was about 8. I remember the passion I felt the day I was baptized, all the things I learned in church growing up. It was like a fire in my heart and was like the most amazing kind of high. A good kind of high.

But nothing compares to the feeling you get when you bring your children closer to God. Taking them to church has given me the most warm feeling in my heart. I have teared up every Sunday, when the lights are dimmed at church for service, and I look over and see Emma all wide eyed and ready to learn. I always hold her hand so she knows I am still there with her, because the music gets loud and they turn the stage lights on and the house lights down.

Yesterday I sat holding her hand, rubbing my fingers over her chubby little fist and it was 10000 times the feelings I have ever felt. It felt like God was sitting right beside me and Emma. When Derek and Ella come running out of Sunday school to tell me what they learned or show me their art, I feel so very proud

I am a sinner, I have done some bad things in my life, but know that God has forgiven me and loves me. I often doubt I even deserve a place in Heaven. I try so hard to do what God wants me to do, and be a good person. But to know I am bringing my children closer to Heaven by bringing them to God, to help teach them to be good moral loving people, that is just a feeling that is almost too hard to describe. Our pastor Justin has said that God doesn't want it to be just about "ME ME ME" but wants us to bring people to God. Just like God told Simon in Luke 5:10 ""Don't be afraid; from now on you will catch men." Oh the feelings Simon must have had when he helped teach and bring people to the Lord.

Anyway just some Mommy thoughts, kind of rambling I guess. Emma is getting her hip braces tomorrow. They came Friday and had to make some changes to them. They will help hold her legs together when she is in bed. They are beautiful. They have purple fleecy straps with butterflies on them! The guy who made them, Gary, did a great job guessing at what Emma would like. Butterflies are her favorite, and so is purple. Will try to get a pic of her wearing them soon, if I can ever find that stupid memory stick to my computer! Maybe Nanny will come take some for us, if she ever figures out her camera settings. :-)

Emma's new cousin makes it first apperance, ultrasound video!

Just wanted to share this with those of you praying for Emma's Aunt Amanda and her new little baby growing in her tummy. She is 7 and a half weeks pregnant now and everything so far looks ok. She is throwing up a lot, so prayers for that please. I sure do not miss that part of pregnancy, I threw up so much with Emma and Ella I seriously thought I might die. 3-10 times a day my entire pregnancy from the day I found out to the day I gave birth. So I feel my sister in laws pain. Here is her 7.5 week ultrasound, a quick snippet of it anyway, pause our music over on the right and turn your sound up so you can hear my new neice or nephew's litle heartbeat! Its a beautiful sound.

7 1/2 weeks ultra sound

Happy Veterans Day

Just wanted to give a shout out to all our Vets to let them know we will be thinking of you tomorrow, and to send our thanks. We have many vets in our family and we salute them today.

Emma's Daddy joined the Navy right before I married him. He was gone a lot, not as much as he could have been, but a lot. Having him gone made me realize how hard it is on the family they leave behind. So I am also honoring the familes , for all they sacraficed. Bless you all.

Special prayers to Emma's Uncle Jay who is Army National Guard and is doing his part to prepare new soldiers to go to boot camp, and Emma's Uncle Adam who is Army and serving in Iraq, Veteran's day couldn't go by without a special thought of you.

Is she your daughter?

Is that your daughter? You would think such a simple question would get a get a simple answer. My mouth usually says "yes" and my heart thinks something else. Its not just Emma, its my other daughter and son too.

My heart says "No, they are not mine, they are God's children and I am only lucky enough to be borrowing them for a while." How easy it is to forget in the every day hussle and bussle of doctors appointments, school days, chores and the such that they are not mine. They are truly God's children. And I say a prayer of thanks everyday that they are with me, and that they are healthy.


Ever since my little friend Daniel died, I have thought more and more each day about how short life truly is. My father died when I was 6. I have a few memories of him but not as many as I wish I had. I try each day to do something special with my kids to build some memories for them "just in case" and I take each of those memories into my own heart, just in case God decides unexpectdly to take one of them home. Every moment is precious. Each day is a blessing from above that must be treasured.

Remember these things next time you are rushing to get them out the door for school, or complaining that the drive time to soccer practice is too long. These are the times they will remember, these are the times you will remember.

Here is a poem that was read when my nephew Gabriel died in June 2004. Its beautiful and speaks the things I feel much better than the few words in this blog.

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God's Loan
by Krista Burell

"I'll lend to you for a little time,
A child of mine," He said,
"For you to love the while he lives
And mourn for when he's dead.

"It may be six or seven years
Or twenty-two or three,
But will you till I call him back,
Take care of him for me?

"He'll bring his charms to gladden you
And should his stay be brief,
You'll have these precious memories
As solace for your grief.

"I cannot promise he will stay
Since all from earth return.
But there are lessons taught down there
I want this child to learn.

"I've looked this world over,
In my search for teachers true.
In the crowds that throng life's land,
I have selected you.

"Now will you give him all your love
Not think the labour vain,
Nor hate me when I come to call
To take him back again?"

It seems to me I heard them say,
"Dear Lord, thy will be done.
For all the joys a child shall bring,
The risk of grief we'll run.

"We'll shelter him with tenderness,
We'll love him while we may,
And for the happiness we've known
Forever grateful stay.

"And should the angels call for him
Much sooner than we've planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes
And try to understand."

Halloween Pics

What a busy Halloween! We went to the Fall Fest at our church. Nanny and Poppy came too so they could help with the kids since Daddy had to work. Derek and Ella loved playing all the games. Emma played the lucky duck game and one 3 lollipops but other than that it was too crowded and too hard for her to try to play games. She just people watched and slept.

Emma went as a snow princess we even put lights and snowflakes on her chair, Derek went as IronMan and Ella was Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz. Ella won 3rd place in the contest for her age group for best costume. She got a ribbon it was neat.

Not much else going on around here today, just resting today we are all tired. Tomorrow we will be going to church again, Emma is already looking forward to seeing her new friends. The pastor saw her last night and said "Is that my girl Emma?" and really checked her costume out and was nice to her. I think she likes him. She likes his voice, I know that because she liked listening to him last weekend preaching about how to pray.

Guess what Emma did for the very time today? She rode on a tricycle at physical therapy. Its a special trike that she can be strapped into. She pushed a tiny tiny bit on pedals by herself and the rest of the time we pushed her and the pedals turned and since she was strapped to them, it worked her legs.

It was beautiful! She looked so "normal" like any kid getting on one for the first time, so grown up. I was so proud. Next time I will try to bring the camera (the one time I don't do it!) I think we may have the next Lance Armstrong on our hands, look out world!

Prayers please for Emma's Aunt Amanda (Daddy's sis) she just found out she is expecting, she lost a little boy to a neural tube defect right before Emma and Ella were born. We are thinking of her and wish the best for our latest little family member. Seems everyone is having babies lately, we are awaiting word on our friend Donna and how she is doing, so keep praying. She has a doctors visit today. I love babies and it sounds like we will have lots of baby showers to go to soon. Thankfully this Momma is done making babies. 3 is enough for us.

Emma's first trip to church

Today Emma went to church for the very first time. Shocking I know. Most people figure our family already did the whole church thing. But in reality life got in the way or I got lazy or worried about germs or something and none of my kids have ever been until now. Its nice to feel that connection again, I really enjoyed myself is been too long since I have been to church too.

Ella went to her class they learned about Daniel praying faithfully to God. She brought a pic home of Daniel she colored with a green face, it was cute. A few other art things came home too. Derek said they learned about all kinds of stuff and he seemed pretty happy.

Emma went to big people church with me. She LOVED it. I sat her in my lap for most of it until she got too hot on my chest and then back in her chair she went. They have a great band, and Emma was rockin'. I helped her clap her hands and she stayed awake for all but about 10 mins of it. I was great.

Its Generations church. The one we all went to the little carnival at a while back. Its right up the street from my house. 5 mins maybe walking distance. Its a diffrent church than I am used to. I always went to a pretty strict Baptist church growing up. This one is more modern, they have a band and words to the songs on the screen. You don't have to hold your bible and flip pages the whole time, because they put verses up on the big tv screen too. The minister is a young family man and seems very down to earth and friendly.

Everyone was so nice to Emma. Trying to make her feel included in things. Many people said Hi and called her by name (she had a name tag) and ducked down to her wheelchair level to talk to her. Lots of comments on her curly hair and long eyelashes.

They have diffrent groups that meet through out the week. I am going to try to go to he women's group on Tue since Darren is off that night. They are also having a Halloween Fun Fest that we plan on going to on Friday.

So busy day, early start and a tired but very spirtually happy family today. Have a blessed Sunday everyone.

Happy 7th birthday in Heaven Daniel

Well, today our special friend Homer is turning 7 years old in Heaven. I wanted to write a very special blog about it, but for some reason my mind is in a haze, and I can't the words to come out right. We all miss him so much. I beg of all our readers to please pray for his family today. I can't even imagine the unbearable sadness they are going to feel today, missing him so much.

I know that his real birthday was the day he got to Heaven. He was in a sense reborn there, with no health problems. He doesn't need his trach, or his mickey button. I like to think he is eating a big cake today and for the very first time he will be able to eat it with his mouth, something he could never do here. He is free from pain, and his body no longer holds him back. This should be a happy birthday, yet in my heart all I can thinking of is his family and how nothing right now can heal the pain they feel.

I still don't understand some times how God could call home such a sweet and precious boy when all the evil people of the world stay here. I often find myself questioning why he took him home. I remember "In the Lord, put your trust." - Psalms 11:1 and really try to trust in God's plan. Its hard sometimes. I must trust that in the grand scheme of it all God has a plan for their family. I think God's plan for little Daniel was to let him touch the hearts of many, to teach the world patience, love and compassion. He taught me that being different doesn't mean you are that "different" we all want to be loved in this world. He showed me just because he and Emma have Cerebral Palsy doesn't make it the end of the world. That little boy packed a lot of life in his few years here. He brought our families together. For that I will forever be grateful.

Happy Birthday Daniel, we miss you.

I have said it before. I am not a fancy writer but I do like to write things for people. With what would have been Daniel's 7th birthday coming up Saturday I wrote this for his mom. Her favorite flower is the gerber daisy. I picked red because no matter what time of year, you can always find red ones, Valentines or fall it matches everything. So, just like her son's love they never go away. Here goes, don't laugh!



The Story of the Red Gerber Daisy....

by me Lori R.



Somewhere among the gold paved roads and flowing rivers, not far past the tree of life a small boy stands looking down on earth. A beautiful red daisy clutched in his chubby hand, he pulls it close to his nose and inhales. A flood of memories fill his mind. His tiny feet in the sand at the beach, Daddy giving him nose rubs, Mom singing the sunshine song. A lifetime of memories consume his heart with happiness, as he peaks down below the clouds of Heaven to try to catch a glimpse of those he left behind.

A mother sits in her garden, a beautiful red daisy in her loving hands. She inhales and the memories fill her mind. The many nights she kept watch over her son, the quite moments he spent in her arms that felt like the most heart felt conversation she ever had. She lifts her eyes upwards towards the clouds up to Heaven hoping to catch a glimpse of that which she has lost.

A father sits listening to beautiful music, picking at the petals of a red daisy he holds in his hand. He takes a deep breath and is filled with memories. Fixing his son's hair just right, swinging at the park, tickling all those sweet little squishy spots. His lifts his eyes towards Heaven, past the clouds and squints to try to catch a glimpse of that which he has lost.

The boy climbs high up into the tree of life, right to the very tip top. There, are the most perfect red daises he ever laid his eyes on. He picks a few, just as he did before, kisses them, and tosses them in the air, watching them fall beneath the clouds. With a voice more beautiful than any of the angels he speaks. "For you Mommy and Daddy. Smell them and remember me, know that when its your time, when it is God's will that we reunite, I'll be here waiting, but until then dry your tears, and watch for the flowers I send and know that I love you"

Prayer Request

Emma and Donna her "Momma2"



A very special prayer request tonight. A while back I told you that Emma's boyfriend Daniel passed away. and as you all know from that time forward I have talked about his Mom Donna a lot. She is my very best friend, and came all the way down here to see Emma for her surgery. She is so loving and warm and very special to me.

Well guess what!? She just found out she is pregnant. They were just starting to try, even though its only been a few short months since he passed away, they needed to try because for medical reasons the sooner the better for her.

Daniel's 7th birthday would be this Saturday the 25th. I am asking that everyone please say a prayer for Donna, her hubby Brian and their new little one growing insider her tummy. I know Sat will be tough for them. I wish I could be with her that day, but atlas the miles that separate us are just too many. I am so excited for her over this new little one and also ask for prayers that her pregnancy and her delivery sometime late next spring early summer time go well. Daniel was hurt during his birthing process, so I know she is going to need all the prayers for strength when that time comes.

Anyway, we are excited and worried and still mourning for Daniel all at the same time, I can imagine those emotions are very powerful for her.

Thanks all!